My stress level at this current moment in time is very, very high.
I’ve been working a ton of hours preparing for a huge business trip next week, and I’ve remained relatively cool and calm through it all, but last night it just all hit me at once and I started getting really cranky.
This morning, short on sleep again, I was feeling much better. But then a few things happened today to really piss me off, and now I’m at a “snapping” level. If someone says anything retarded to me tonight, I might explode.
So here I am, about 50 minutes away from having about 8-10 people at my apartment and then we are all going to head to a big art party (think First Fridays for you Bostonites). I’m not in the mood to do anything, I’m tired, my body is sore, and my mind is all over the place.
One of the things I’ve really come to value about myself has been my greatly improved ability to look bullshit in the eye, turn it off, stay cool, and let my cooler head prevail. In learning how to not fly off the handle, I’ve also developed a keen awareness of how to act in high pressure situations (drunk friends getting ill, police, fights at bars, etc.) So here’s what I am going to do right now:
1. Put on some new tunes that I am really digging (the soundtrack to Vicky Christina Barcelona actually) that just exudes sexy and puts me in the right headspace
2. Clean my apartment up, and declutter my mind
3. Light some incense (a sensory way for me to relax)
4. Do a few minutes of yoga
5. Meditate in the shower
6. Get ready to entertain and rock the fuck out tonight with some great friends
I cannot control my work issues that are going to make me go in tomorrow, so there is no reason to bitch and moan about something I can’t impact or influence at all right now. The only thing I can do is chill out, relax, and enjoy my friends.
Complaining, bitching, moaning, and lamenting are all acts of the inner chode. Never concern yourself with that you cannot control.
Time to go enjoy myself!